My Career @ Quarter 4 - 2010

I have been long long time... Return to my blog page.

Perhaps, I have nothing to write? or I wish not to write or something I can't express here...

In the month of October and November, my feeling is just terribly, dramatically up and down. Imagine there is few clocks is "tic-tac, tic-tac" inside your head, with alarmed.
Here ring and there.

Guess what? Money? Love? Career? Man can't run away from this few problems.

Nothing much to guess... Is my career actually.

This happen end of September 2010, I had join Cxtx as a Relationship Manager, I feel like so proud of it. Finally I am so called "manager". Fresh bloods for Cxtx with my new gang, Batch 3.

We hehehaha for a beginning. Slowly, I found RM is a tough job, tougher than when I was in PBB, this is what I tought, In addition of my boss not approve my leaves, I feel so restricted to work here. and the feeling of dissapointed and regrets come in my mind. And I decided, If my leaves not approve, I will say Goodbye to "you"! Wahaha...

But the main thing prompted in my mind was, I want non-sales job... I want non-sales job...
It's keep booming my mind... gosh!

So I started clicking Jobstreet.com (my favorite job seeker website). In between, I feeling is becoming stronger and stronger that I DON'T WANT to stay here!!!
Asking around my batch like mad, any vacancies available from their previous one?!

I keep updating my resume, prints and ask for "tolong" (it's Malay, and means help in English).

Oh yea finally, one of my batch mate have a taught " Why not you appy... Investment Consultant? IC : financial planning, advisor, with no sales target (the most important)! 100% suitable for my characteristic, and my batch mate said "Go ahead to apply, I will write a recommend letter for you too!"

Oh my god! My future is there, I feel it, I really feel it!

And a week after, I had received a call from SxxxCxxxx. "Would you mind to join as Junior Product Manager, since you don't have any experiences on it, we can only offer you based on what your current offer. I will call you up in next few days."

(I just feel that I am so lucky to join Cxtx and get to know so much opportunities for me! Goodbye Citi! Wahaha...)

A week has passed, I didn't receive any call from him. I take initiative to call back. And the result I get, "We want someone is experiences right now... sorry." I am so heavily after the call... My dream just wrecked.

Nevermind! I won't give up to try to leave this place!

(Story too long, and impatient to write too, so just shortcut it :P)

I had interview other Bank as well. And finally, my feeling back to normal.
Thanks to my friends, my girl friend for giving me supports and advises.

Why I soooo stubborn for being wasted my time on searching jobs, but not think about to stay and give myself chances to learn here? With the name of Cxtx, I can get better career path here.

bla... bla... bla...

So, I am still stay here. Happily. :D

"Sometimes, when we think we are in the worst, but actually we are not. We have just stuck in an angle of perception, this is what we are belief. Beliefs can bring us through tough times, and can as well bring us to death. Over belief is also called stubborn. What we need to do it. We should always review our beliefs. Good belief stay with us, the bad ones, we need to extract out the energy and install it to a new belief which we think it is good for us."

~ -Love Confession- ~

To my MuuMuu Dear~

We started our love jurney since 05 Nov 2009,
and until now we have gone through 5months of period.
But it's just like 5 years wahaha...

Darl always feel very happy and sweet with you,
although you are not beside me.

I really need to thank you my deardear for being so sayang me...
And when I receive the present you specially brought for me from Sabah, I feel very very happy and sweet which cannot describe by words.
The present cover is the most special I ever receive.
With your drawing, so cute to cheer me up! MUAKZZ MUAKZZ MUAKZZ. x infinity >.<

Hahaha... It is soooooooo cute! tomato head with 5 sticks :P My drawing is worst than this kakaka.

And I am here to say sorry to you too,
Sometimes, I am so naughty to make you worry about me.
I don't want to let you worry me, but the end make you more worry me.
(I am so stupid... hahaha...)
I always to teach you how to let go something and take it easy,
but, I am also the one screwing into the dead end.

I just look like a child who never grow up in your heart.
Hahaha... (Hiding into your armpit :D:D:D)
Although I am not the best guy in the world,
But I am always learn to be your better man.

I LOVE YOU MY DEARDEAR.

From your Piggy DarlDarl :P

要不要——爱情

我刚读到一篇文章很有意思，所以转贴在我的部落格内。

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不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。

不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。

不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。

不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。

其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

爱你就要让我哭，爱我就要让我哭

每个人都成长在不同的环境中，这世界没有童话般的爱情，没有永远快乐的爱情过程。
现实的爱情要经得起酸甜苦辣，只要你一逃避问题，问题永远都不会解决。

吵架是因误会而产生，不把误会解决难道要到不能收拾的地步才来解决吗？

一方面说出自己的想法想要彼此坐下来解决误会，找出可共同而可以让大家更深入了解对方。
另一方面却说这是无所谓的吵架，爱他/她就不要让他/她哭，不了解他/她。
难道就只有一方永远得顺从另一方吗？

你说的一句是误会，我回的一句也是误会。
跟你说对不起是因为我知道那句话让你产生误会，我会去了解，去融入你的想法……
跟你说为何你那句话会让我产生误会，你却说这是无谓的吵架，说声说对不起因为你说话的时序不对……
你不用跟我道歉，我只是需要你来多了解我。

如果你有时间在雨中等待彩虹的出现，
为何不尝试在雨中寻找或制造你想要的彩虹呢？

新男女十得

看到一篇報章，寫著中國新男女性十得，剪貼讓大家看看。哈哈……

上得了廳堂，下得了廚房，
寫得了代碼，查得出異常，
殺得了木馬，翻得了圍牆，
開得起好車，買得起新房，
鬥得過二奶，打得過流氓。

睡得了地板，住得了走廊，
跪得起搓板，補得了衣裳，
吃得下剩飯，付得起藥方，
帶得了孩子，養得起姑娘（女兒），
耐得住寂寞，爭做灰太狼。

♥ + ♥ = ♥

回忆——Memories

事情总是徘徊在我们之间，
Things are always hovering between us,

而记忆总是停留在我们脑里。
The memories always remain in our minds.

当我们遇到一些事，一些人，
When we encounter something, some people,

一些物品，一些照片，
Some items, some photographs,

在同样的或不同的地点，
In the same or different locations,

在同样的或不同的时间，
In the same or different time,

回忆就会像放影片般的，
Memories will be like a movie-like place,

开心的，激怒的，伤心的，感叹的，
Happy, anger, sad, laments,

全都会一一播放在你的眼前……
Everything will be playback infront of your eyes...

可能，记忆会模糊……
Maybe, the memories will get blur...

就像一年前的事，发生在很久以前。
Like a year ago, took place in a long time ago.

也可能很清晰……
It may also be very clear...

就像十年前的事，发生在昨天。
Like a decade ago, took place yesterday.

你能选择逃避与忘记，
You can choose to escape and forget,

也能选择面对与接受。
Also can choose to face and acceptance.

不同的选择，会带出不同的感想……
Different options, will bring out different feelings...

而我，选择的是后者。
And I, choose the latter.

回忆来临时，我会笑，愤怒，也会大声的哭……
When memories comes, I will laugh, angry, even would cry loudly...

而现在的你，又想起了什么？
At this present, what have you thought of?